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It's been 1 week, and 4 days since I last drank a dose. I feel more over whelmed than anything at this point. I'm going crazy in my own head doing anything to drowned out the thoughts constantly watching movies, listening to music, and complicating the positives and negatives well continuing school. It's been almost 6 years since I started taking opiates my body is decayed, malnourished and run down. What I thought was a short term program after trying to quit opiates several times at detox on my 17th birthday I joined the methadone clinic in desperate need. At this time in my life I can truly say I didn't want to get better I was diagnosed with PTSD, and social anxiety. my daily doses was 95 mg plus I still had been abusing OxyContin when available it took me a year and a half to actually quit using pills. Not once did the doctors threaten to kick me off or offer any treatment each time I pee'd dirty they would higher my dose within 6 months I was sitting at 115 mg daily weighing 120 pounds 6 foot I had very little appetite living off sweets and pop.
I can remember waking up around 730 am. I would always have a bucket in front of the couch due to nausea, and vomiting. I would sleep hours upon hours in late 2010, early 2011 I had maxed out my dose at 120mg daily. I quickly realized I was really dependent on this. Since I am so small and malnourished I was able to decrease to 25mgs without any agony. I started school and was comfortable the doctors told me "maybe I will be on this for the rest of my life" and to embrace it look at it as a blood pressure medication it keeps you stable. I trusted the doctors I had been prescribed many different medications for depression and etc. I wasn't depressed I was miserable with my life, and ashamed. I had burnt all bridges with life long friends. Relationships that once meant a lot to me were gone I was alone but I was satisfied with being high. I met my dad on my 16th birthday. My dad just so happened to be prescribed the same medication and from him I learnt the trait of being an oxymoron. I started using with my father but in 2010 on thanks giving i had to cut ties with him as he got deeper and deeper in the cycle of addiction he moved up and I realized I was f***ed for allowing myself to be in that environment. Now 2013 at 8mgs, 21 years old I jumped the dose and told the doctors to beat it on june 28th 2013. It was a blessing in disguise although I feel miserable I can think for myself and feel free. Although my mood changes moment to moment I am far from irritated as I was on methadone. I feel like I was on a power trip 24/7 always constantly disrespecting my grandma. And I'm a selfish prick for being that way being off anti depressants, opiates. Is a life changer I hope to continue the education I never had a chance to achieve due to opiate use. Meet someone who likes me for me and accepts the things I've done. No ones perfect in this day an age, I know I still have a long journey ahead and focusing on me is key. Growing up being in rehab's and detox's older men alway's told me " you have to want to change for yourself " and I never got it. But this time around its for me, not for some girl I met and spilt my guts out so I feel like I can change for her, not for my mother so I can move back in. It's for myself and I stress that anyone who thinks about getting clean has to do it for themselves. I've tried to change for many it never worked I was either using in my spare time or sneaking around to get high. It's now 11:35 PM July 9th I'm estimating about 4-8 weeks of withdrawals due to the long half life if I'm lucky. I'm mainly worried only because I haven't really experienced any withdrawal symptoms besides RSL, and Aniexty, panic attacks, loose bowels and I feel as if its going to kick me in the ass during week 2-3. Anyone else have this experience?

I'm also very unhealthy sitting at 130 pounds 6'1 I'm a complete mess

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HI! Wow, you've certainly been through a lot and deserve a lot of credit for realizing that you needed to change things.

Methadone is very hard to kick, that's why most people that have used it to treat addiction end up on a lifetime maintenance dose of it.

Learn more Methadone details here.

Some have said that the cravings for it never stop.

How are you doing now? Please post back and let everyone know. :-)

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