Fentanyl Withdrawal Symptoms (Page 58)

I'm trying to wean myself off the Fentanyl patch. I went from 75 micro-gms to 50 now I'm on 25. Having a problem and not sure it is related to the decrease in the med. It's been 20 days on the 25 micro-gm and I'm going crazy. I need to keep rocking, moving in any way b/c my body is very restless. Is this a symptom of withdrawal and what do I do? I cannot take it any more.

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I snuck back. I don't care who is watching.

Nanna, STOP IT!

My husband had a heart attack and I could not follow through due to medical bills. I have not opened my computer, mail or phone for two weeks and did not know what was transpiring here. What a mess! My hero, my lover and best friend almost died.

I was so afraid I might loose him.

This is God's punishment upon me, his Angel. I judged someone I did not know enough and just believed what the police told me. They scared me into not thinking straight.

Nanna, HOW. COULD. YOU. THINK. I. WOULD. DO. ILL BY. YOU??

H O W?

My husband was dying. Someone tried to scam me.
HOW, you know me and my love for you... My respect, ONE POST and you think it's YOU?

I am one weeping Angel, tonight.

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My name is Tami and I am Nutty's daughter and I had to come one here to let everyone know that she is in the ICU unit. She opened her port and let it bleed out to were she has lost so much blood and the doctors think she may not pull through. I know my mother more then anyone on the face of this earth and I can tell you she is one of the most loving, giving, caring, and would help anyone that would ask. Someone on the site called her and told her that they were sending her a gift. She was so elated that she could buy her grandkids Christmas. Then out of the blue they called someone that did not know what she had been through and did not know enough to tell what she has accomplished. I don't know why they didn't just call my mother and ask for an explination, instead they got her hopes up and then shattered her world. I don't know what kind of web-site this is but I forbid her to come on this site again. That is if she makes it through this. The whole family is upset and we are very scared. So if the person that did this without my mother asking you to do this, cause I know my mother and she don't ask anyone to do anything for her, then you will live with this the rest of your life. I hope this makes you very happy to know that you could have prevented this by not even calling her to begin with. I know she did not ask you to send her anything. She has too much pride and know that this is something that was taught not to do. She could have asked the Church were she goes to to help, but she does not believe in messing with the Church, or asking anyone for anykind of help, no matter what kind of shape she is in. That is just the kind of person she is. I know that she has asked for prayer, but that would be all she would ask for. And my God she does not do any kind of illegal drugs, I would of all people would know because I stay right under her tail. I am going to see what I can do about shutting down this site because of this. To all the others that she looked upon as friends, I'm sorry that I have to do this but the life of my mother is worth everything to me. And her life is worth more than a stupid site that accused her of doing something she would never in a thousand years ever do. It broke ny heart to see what this did to my mother.

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This is nuttys daughter. She is going to be alright, maybe not mental wise but health wise she will. Angel, she talked about you like you were a God or something. And you know that you were talking about her. Because I was sitting with her when you called and told her you were sending her a gift. Why did you do that to her. You sent her some patches a couple of weeks ago and I don't approve of that. And she asked you not to do that because I was sitting with her when she did this. Come on, now is the time to tell the truth. You just about shattered my mothers life, and then had enough gall to call the police like she asked you to do this. Did you tell the police that it was your idea to send them to her?? No, I didn't think so. Honesty runs deeply in our family and now she has to worry about the things that you lied to the police about. I bet you said she begged you to send them. I know she did not. Like I said I stay under her tail at all times. I love my mother dearly. You will have so many problems for what you put my mother through. And Angel, you think you have been weeping, you should see my mothers eyes, they are swollen shut, so shut that she can't even see out of them and is still crying. I always believe what goes around comes around.

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I have the evidence, you can read it on this blog, where your mother asked for drugs.

I REFUSED.

I WILL ALSO SEND YOU THE EMAIL WHERE SHE ASKED , no BEGGED ME FOR MONEY.

I SENT YOUR MOTHER MONEY THE FIRST TIME.

SHE TOLD SOMEONE SHE BOUGHT HEROINE WITH IT.

I LOVED NANNA. BUT NOT THE ADDICT.
ADDICTS LIE.

I have your Mom's picture on my dresser. I sent her money and listened to her. She was miserable. I knew all about her troubles, past and present. I still loved and helped her.
When people try to take their own life, it is easier to look for a scape goat. Why did your mother fixate on me? That would be a good starting question.

I have voice messages daily where Nanna goes on and on about how much she loves me and I am her only friend.

Listen.

I am a virtual person on a blog. I believe, I say this with respect, that Nanna was depressed, lonely and unbalanced.

I tried to pull away gently from her. I was about to file a restraining order on her. She called daily. I have proof.

Today, after these threats, I am obtaining counsel and calling in the police.

I have had enough. This is what I get for my generosity?

Now I am mad.

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Angel, who is writing under "your worst nightmare". I have copyed every post on this site for safety reasons. and please start with post 1053, then read 1057, 1063, and 1066. I think you are mistaken. My mother did not ask for anything on this site and I checked her phone. she was called by you three times, and she called you three times and that is all. If this warrents a harrassment charge, then the police down here think not. We even have the conversation recorded, and in no way was she even ugly with you. I think it's time to be honest with all. Even yourself. I'm not trying to be ugly but I am trying to protect my mother that was accussed of something she did not do. I'm sorry you took it wrong.

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My mother has never done Herion in her life. Never. You are so mistaken and I don't know who you are listening to but she has never told anyone that either. You can't even get herion in this little town that we live in. I think you have her mixed up with someone else.

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I do know all the illegal drugs that she has done and it was over 15 years ago. One was crack, but nothing else that was illegal. She has tried all the things that the doctors have given her and a long time ago she did abuse some of these. But she does not abuse them now because I hold them and I am a nurse at the hospital. I despense them out as she needs them and not before. So I know that she does not do anything she is not suppose to do. And Angel, with the family that I have, you do not scare me. i'M VERY PROTECTIVE OF MY MOTHER.

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I have my lawyer, Mr Ryan Harrington. Both he and the officer I just logged the story with say my only culpability would lie in if I knew one fact. I did not.

This is farce.
I will have changed my phone number and email address after this post.

Should you, your mother or anyone contact me, I will consider it harassment from this point onward.

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Well, I guess I made someone one feel guilty. Mom gets to come home tomorrow and I will be so glad. If you are a praying person, please pray for her. She was not depressed, just upset and tore out of her frame by someone that she put her trust in. I warned her about the people out in the world that would make her feel like she was a piece of trash but she seemed to love this person so much and thought the world of them. She would go on and on about this person and how much she thought of them. How they made her feel so worthy. I am sorry about the past post that I posted, but I was very concerened about the welfer of my mom. Mom is a wonderful person now since she got her act together 15 or so years ago and I'm so happy to have her back. I love my mother so much. And, to the lady that her husband had a heart attact, I'm so very soory and pray that he gets well.

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This needs to STOP NOW! I'm not going to accuse anyone and I don't want anyone admitting anything online, but I warned of this before. We are all hurting and going through personal trials, but we CANNOT help each other with medication that is the pain management doctors job. I know how horrible withdrawal feels, I have gone to the ER for help before. This group and this website is here for support when we are down and at our lowest in life, and I feel we do a good job of talking to each other, praying, and letting each other know we are thinking about them. This is all we need to do for each other, we cannot interfere in any other way! The police are probably monitoring this site already, and if this site goes down many of us cannot stay in contact with each other. I have enjoyed everybody's thoughts, concerns, and wisdom when I am down. I do not want to see this website shut down, I would miss all of you guys. Angel, I am sorry to hear about what your going through, I am thinking about you, and wish you well. Nanny, get well soon, I am sorry to hear about everything. To all the rest of us, stay focused, better days are ahead, they have to be (at least that is what I keep telling myself).

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You did not sent her money the first time. you sent her patches because I was with her when she opened the Fedex package....and i have the email were you told her to burn the package.

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Weeler, I so agree with you,, it's sad when one person starts something and it snowballs .. I only come on to just make comments and try to give advise if someone asks.. We all are trying to deal with the pain from our injuries or disabilities.. Would be sad to see this site go down, but nothing would surprise me, hope everyone tries to have a good holiday

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I would first like to say that I feel so bad for both women (Nuttynanny and Angel) involved in the fiasco. What does not make sense to me is One saying she would never mean she was speaking about Nanny and comes back with (Your Worst Nightmare) as her username instead of apologizing, but as she has stated on numerous occasions she has risen through politics and we all know those in politics never lie. Seems to me Nuttynanny really misjudged who she thought her friend was. I do remember reading all the posts and Nanny admitting her past, although most would not do so in those circumstances for fear of judgement, so I must commend her for that. At the same time addiction is a very tricky situation wether in sobriety or not, especially when true pain is constantly beckoning your name. You never REALLY know what you would do in someone else's shoes unless you have been there before, and even then we r all still so different from one another with morals and values GOD given or taught by parents or learned on one's own. Only God has the right to judge anyone so let's leave that to Him. Besides, He's the ONLY One Who really knows our hearts and minds.

With that being said it really saddens me to think Nanny would end her life over a person who is obviously struggling with her own problems. She has yet to come out and apologize to the group the way an adult would when they have wronged someone, either intentional or not. I have seen too much back pedaling but no apologies. The cover is clearly blown and Angel, although I have always enjoyed your posts I am really sad you have not stepped up. Both you and Nanny are at fault. One- you offered and told her how to get by the moderator to put in her address. Two- you sent the package- a felony I might add. Three- pushing all the blame onto Nanny only after being called it by Nanny's daughter. R u a Christian? I had thought from previous posts u r? Just search you heart and seek God's will on this one. It will not be easy but I know God will help both of you through it.

To Nanny's daughter,
I am so glad to hear she will be ok. I was so worried. I wish I could speak to he myself and I barely know her, only by reading these post. Is it ok to send a get well card or one of encouragement? Is she a Christian? It's ok either way. Please keep us informed on how she is doing and to keep the faith. I will be praying for her.

And as far as culpability goes, Angel you r there smack dab in the middle. It's illegal to give th away to anyone and you know that. It's in every patient pain management contract.

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God will never forsake us or leave us.

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Nurse Audrey- I so agree with what you wrote,, I thought that name she took was awful and I thought she wasn't going to come back on this site.. It's also sad that she probably got caught and didn't realize that nanny daughter knew that she got the meds, so of course she is trying to point fingers at nanny..People sometimes get fooled with somone saying they care when in fact they are just needy and looking for somone who is vulnerable.. I hope nanny will be ok, and Angel should try and realize that the cat is out of the bag..yes sending Fentanyl which is a powerful drug should never be given to anyone unless your pain dr, has given you a script, certainly not given to somone else.. Her stating her lawyers name really didnt do much other than trying to scare .. I hope all this stops.. This is a Lesson for everyone on here unless you really know somone do not trust just anybody.. We are here for suggestions how to deal with our pain,, leave the soap opera for TV..

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I said I would not come back on this site, but I had to come and say that I am sorry for what my daughter said and did. She was only thinking of me and what danger that I did to myself. I will be ok and I am going to a doctor for my mental help. I was accused of something I did not do and I only thought that I was doing right. I guess you live and learn by all means the hard way. I do not do any illegal drugs and have never ever done herion(I don't even know how to spell it). I don't even think you can even get that in this one horse town. I know I never told anyone that I bought it. I would be so scared to even try to buy anything for fear of being caught. I don't think I have ever asked for anything as far as I can remember. I have one friend that lives around me and its a sister of a very dear friend that died of cancer August before last. She was my only and very dear friend that I have known since our daughters were about six years old. I don't have any other friends because of the things I had done years ago and very fearful of them even having something that would harm me in some sort of way. I am so very sorry that I took what one person said and let it effect me in the way that it did. I am not depressed, nor am I a hateful person. I love everyone, even my enimies. Yes, I am a Christian, a new one, because I was saved about 8 years ago and was baptisized with my grandson on the same day. I have beautiful pictures of us having this done. I will go to Heaven. But, I know that if I had proceeded with what I tried to do I would not. I would be living in sheer torment for the duration of time in hell. I just want everyone to know that I am very sorry for the things that my daughter said. She was wrong for coming on here in the first place. She is a nurse and knows better then to judge, she was just worried about her mother. I just want to apologize to everyone, even Angel, whom I love with all my heart. I am so very sorry to eveyone and I hope and pray that Angels husband does better. She is a very beautiful person.

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I need to apologize to the whole group and also for my daughter. I am ok. I am not and have not been depressed in any way. I just was hurt. and sad. But I do owe everyone an apology from the deepest part of my heart. I even owe an apology to Angel. I love her so much and just adore her, no matter what she has done or said. That is also in the past. And that is were it needs to stay. I am deeply sorry for all that has been said and done. I am at fault and I take the blame for what has been done. I love everyone on this site and hope the best for them. I wish there was a way to convey this face to face to show just how much I mean this. I am truely so very sorry. My daughter is a nurse and she was just so worried about me because I promised her years ago that I would never under any guise, try to take my life again. That I would always come to her if I even felt the tinest urge. She knew when I was crying so hard and could not catch my breath that something was wrong and I thought she was not watching me, so I tried. But I failed. My God knows my heart and my soul and He knows what is good for me weither I want it or not He was determinded that I was going to live. My duty on earth is not through. I am truely sorry for what harm I have caused on this site and to the ones that come to read. Please forgive me for what I have done and said. I do owe Angel one to but I guess that will never be able to be told to her. I love her so much. She was a God to my eyes, in a sense.

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Dear all,
I had a private text conversation with Nanna last night.
For the sake of the honesty, you feel I so lack, here is the last two texts sent. The first is mine. The last, Nanna's. You tell me if I am being scammed:

You are right I should have trusted. When you are raised in an alcoholic house you have trust issues all your life. I have worked in therapy evert other week all my life on this.
I am sorry, Nanna.


It is ok i knew you were not going to send me that gift i expected and have accepted it so i will just hide in my room christmas day and them it will be over


You see Nanna asked, no "expected" my money now. And this whole thing, which could even have been written the entire time by Nanna herself, was all about extorting money from me.

I did not make up that phone conversation. In fact, on a later post, if there is disbelief; I will take a picture of that text using my husbands phone and post it here

I was used.
We were used.
My love and foregivness are Nanna's. We are all one on this earth waiting our time before eternal life.
Angel

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This does not even warrent a response from me about the text messages that were texted. Of course the whole conversation was not explained. And I don't owe anyone any explanations. That being said, I did say I was sorry for what I have caused and said to all and also what was said from my daughter. I also have copies of the text that was texted and Angel, you are the one that text me first. I don't know what your intentions are but I am through with this. You asked me why my heart was broken and I was just explaining what had happened. This is so childish and I'm not a child. So this is enough of this mess. We all have left some things out that was said. I told you I was sorry about what was said. That should be enough. My God knows what happened and what all was said and I leave it up to Him to take care of my part. I'm through with the crying over someone that I thought cared, but I guess the texting me to get me to say something like this was what you needed to satisfy your mind into thinking that I was scamming you. I was not in any way doing that. As I recall, you are the one that called me first asking if you could send me a gift, as you called it "from the heart". I told you not to do this because I could never ever be able to pay it back. You are the one that insisted. I asked you twice not to do this. Please let this go. It is over with. I still love you with all my heart and care that you are going through the things that you are going through, and hope for the best for you. I will continue to pray for you that you will not suffer with the illness that you told me about last night. And I will pray for your family, and what is going on with your husband. You are a kind and beautiful person and I hate that this has gone on so long. But we are not children so please just let it go.Everyone on this blog knows that I have never asked anyone to do anything for me except pray for me. That is all I have ever asked. And there is one thing that I don't do and that is lie. I just can't lie about anything. What was said was the truth. Anyone can ask me anything and I will tell you the truth about everything you need to know about me. I have told my story on this site several times because I felt that the people that I was talking to had the right to know what I have done. But, I am proud of what I have done in the past 15 years, because it was not an easy thing for me to do. Every September and October, I have issues still to this day about the rapes that happened in them months, but I am proud to say that I don't use drugs to hide the feelings that I go through anymore. I fight back now with meetings at rape centers and try to help others that has been through this and this has helped me to understand that it was not my fault. I blamed myself for so many years. But everything is in the past from this day forward and it is over with. I will not lower my standards to yours. I will not accuse you of anything else. I am through.....with it all. And I will not be ugly, that is just not me......I am so sorry that you are still having an issue with this. I still love you with all my heart. And never will I do any harm to you or anyone else. I love everyone, My God told me to love you....

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Nutnanny, I am going to say one thing,, for anyone that has to copy a Friends conversation, then post it on here is so so sad.. To state that they have a lawyer called the Police too Please,, do not appoligize. Anyone can copy paste a conversation on the pc. Think the wrong person is the one that should be doing it.. Funny I thought Angel wasn't going to come back and continue with this finger pointing .. Deformation of Character. ..degrading you.. If I was you I would not talk to her anymore on the PC or telephone as it seems she is use to copying, saving texts.. Or phone calls either,, anyone can omit part of a conversation.. I am familiar with Law enforcement and be smart and ignore any more communications with her.. She needs to worry about her husband that was so sick.. This isn't dirty politics as she so often reminded us how she was so involved.. I really can't believe all that has been said about you.. That's No friend.. Sorry I just can't sit back and see what has been going on with a person that always tried to be so caring and then throwing you under a bus .

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