Strain On Loved Ones

So I decided to finally go back on medication, and am on Vyvanse. I stopped taking meds for my ADHD when i was about 14 as I was getting depressed from it then.

Now, I am 22 and finishing up my last year at University and I am at a place where I know I need help to focus. This week I haven't taken it totally consistently since going back on, but when I have, the second consecutive day has been extremely helpful. My concentration and motivation to get work done that I need to cannot even be compared to what it is without the medication.I am on a 40mg dose.

However, I have noticed I am starting to make unreasonable demands of my better half. I also know this in my head, not just after but beforehand. I'm like "oh no, here it comes. I hope I don't do something stupid." Basically, if one tiny thing doesn't go my way, it makes me more and more irritable. And of course, in a relationship you must make compromises but I am feeling like I cannot make a single one because I feel like everything has to be a PERFECT way.

The most frustrating thing is knowing you are being unreasonable/ridiculous but not being able to stop. In the morning this is never a problem. it gets worse throughout the day, starting with the late afternoon. This is not isolated to one relationship as I become irritated with almost all those around me, noises and also have a generally more negative attitude to people (I bike everywhere and have never been more pissed off at how people drive near me than this week).

They say this wears off, but I don't know if I can take another day or two of this. The dose is perfect for concentrating, just under the threshold of being too much for concentration... but even though my grades, productivity and satisfaction with what I am accomplishing is going up, my relationships with people are takign a severe downward spiral.

I feel like this is the worst spot to be in, as I have too many things to do by next week, so I can't go off it if I want them all done/done properly.... but I know i'm just going to hate myself for how I begin to treat others and how I can't accept people because they aren't perfect.

and yes, I am trying to figure things out by writing. I never do this often, its been years and I have never openly wrote about my ADHD on a forum before.

Also, it is worth noting that my relationship with my significant other is very healthy, and we have not had any of these problems in the year + we have been together. She is being so accepting of it too as she knows its not me, which makes me feel even worse about the whole thing.

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Have you considered looking into trying a different medication?

There are several others available for treating ADHD and they may not cause you these same types of issues.

I think the most commonly used are Adderall and Ritalin:

Learn more Adderall details here.

Learn more Ritalin details here.

Any time your treating a medical condition, it's always a matter of trial and error to get things right, which means working and trying until you find the right medication that causes the least amount of side effects and issues. You don't have to settle for taking the first one your doctor prescribes.

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