I'm Addicted To Opiates.
UpdatedI have been taking prescription pain medication (not prescribed to me) since I was around 14. It started out as just taking a hydro 10 here and there on the weekends. Then I started getting them at school taking more and more at a time. Eventually I got my hands on a 30mg roxy, and snorted it. I have been regularly snorting up to 90-120 mg a day for over a year now. I know I have an addiction, but Its just so hard to come off of them. I can't sleep, I get diarrhea, my body shakes and sweats. I have pains all over and all I can do is cry. I don't have time in between working and taking care of my hubby to just take a couple weeks off life to sleep off my withdraws. I like snorting them, I love the way they make me feel, and they don't keep me for days on end, and I can eat when I snort them. I feel like a normal person, with an awesome attitude, and laods of energy, when I have them. But when I don't have them I feel weird, and the withdraws ofcourse, but I just don't feel like I'm myself unless I have them. I know being addicted to them is bad, but I love evrything about them, and me and my hubby both have jobs, so we can afford them, and I don't have any children to take care of, so it just seems like a god lifestyle for me. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I know I'm addicted, and I know its wrong, but how do I find the motivation to quit when I can't even find a flaw of doing them. I've conquered the first step of addiction, admitting it. Now I need a reason to quit. What's the next step to recovery? Any comments or suggestions would greatly appreciated :) Thanks for taking time to read my story either way though :)
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U shud quit becuz the tolerance will just keep goin up & then Wat will u turn to? & think of Wat u cud do with all that $, but I'm tellin u it will only get worse
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